What do you call me:
Is there anything you have wanted to tell me, but havent?
What's my mom's first and last name?
What do you and I have the most in common?
Have you ever had a crush on me (come now,be honest)?
Have you ever had a dream in which I was in?(what kind of dream)
If you could do one thing with me, what would it be?
If you wanted to make me happy, what would you give me for christmas?
What's your favorite part about me?
Do you actively read my xanga?
Who am I head-over-heels in love with?
What do i need the most right now?

Are you a guy or girl:
Do I know you:
Do you go to my school:

What would u do if...

I asked you for help:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I pissed you off:

What Do You Think Of My...

Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Mannerisms:
Family:
Body:
Friends:
Decisions:
Derriere:
Chest(lol):

Would You...

Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Have Sex with me:
Ditch me:
Use me:
Date me:
Rape me(? thats odd?):
Beat me up:

hey you guys... im so confused right now... im starting to feel things i dont want to feel.... and ive had a really bad week... i had fun at kts party... but that also made me upset afterwards.... i have felt and looked like shit the entire week.... i think im gaining weight instead of losing it.... and i tihnk im losing friends .... cuz i havent talked to tess like this entire week. ...she keeps sayin shes not mad at me or anything but i think somethings wrong cuz she keeps like ignoring me.... its ok im not mad at her... cuz if she is doing it on purpose than its my fault... if not than its no ones fault.... i just wanna go into a corner and forget about everything... it wouldt make a difference.... i wanna move.... if i move across the country or to another city or something than no one will know me and i can become a different person... thats what i hate about havin lived in plano all my life... i have a past with EVERYONE! .... im very close to doing some drastic stuff.... but dont worry cuz i wont have enough courage to do it... it just feels like everyones against me and trying to ignore me... and im surounded to perfect people who can walk away from me any time they want... all they have to do is wake up some morning and say o well i dot wanna hang ot with shelby anymore so im not gonna say hi to her and itll all be done... i know i shouldnt but i hate the person i am... im not that great so people think they have to make up for it by pretending i am... so what if i get good grades? its because i put so much stress on myself i would literally commit suicide if i didnt... and then i write something like this and everyone thinks im gonna go follow the path of my older sister and they think that if they give as much pity as they can to see if they can stop it so i dont do anything so that later thay can feel proud that they 'did something to change someone'... i bet if i left town today in a week no one would remember me... at leasts thats wat it feels like.... i try so hard to be like everyone else but i cant... and then all the people that are like everyone else hate me for no goddamn reason (excuse my french) and everyone else feels good about themselves and has self confidence ... but then again they have reasons to be... cuz they all have incredible talents... o yeah so what if i take dance classes? i suck... so i cant say that i have any talents... and i thot going to church would help... but sometimes it doesnt.... i think im gonna go walk to starbux cuz i need to get some fresh air.... if u want to talk to me call the cell...

hey guys! happy new year... can u believe its 2005? i mean just a couple days ago it was 2004!!!! lol sry... omgsh sunday was sooo much fun!!!! went to tes' house and saw her AWESOMELY pink room!!!! then watch like 10 minutes of SOUTH PARK!!! lol then got to youth and had soo much freakin fun!!! omgsh ! except that kevin was there... that sucked... but other than that i had so much fun hittin tess!!! lol love ya babe! ok well i g2g to a cheerleadin thingy today and then im goin back to school tomorrow ahhhh! o and sry guys im not goin to wave cuz im goin to the TORNADO HOCKEY GAME !! with my peeps tess michael and andy!!! yeah! lol anywho thats all im gonna write! much0 grandE love!!!